Breaking Plans and Seizing Opportunities

Happy Tuesday! I hope you had a great weekend. Carter and I spent the weekend getting into the holiday spirit . . . it’s never too early to start celebrating Christmas! On Saturday, we went to Waterloo Gardens to do some Christmas shopping/browsing, and we met these two adorable miniature horses! They came right up to us and nuzzled us . . . just because they loved us, not because they were looking for food. :)

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Saturday night, we went to see “A Christmas Carol” in 3D. I wasn’t as blown away by this movie as I was when I saw “The Polar Express” for the first time, but it was still very well done, true to the original story and a fun way to spend a Saturday night!

On Sunday, Carter, my mom, Zane and I went to Peddler’s Village in Lahaska, PA for the apple festival. Note to self: festival days are not always the best days to venture out on day trips! It was insanely crowded! Though we didn’t have time to browse in as many stores as we would have liked, we enjoyed spending the day together . . .

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and Zane went on his first carousel ride!

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I also heard Zane “belly laugh” for the first time. My mom bought him a little monkey stuffed animal, and when she danced the money in front of his face, bubbles of laughter exploded from his belly. I laughed so hard that I cried! Every time I spend time with Zane, I fall more and more in love with him. Carter and I both feel sad when we have to say goodbye to him for the day. I think this might be a good sign that we’re one step closer to being ready to be parents!

It’s been an interesting learning experience for me as I’ve begun accepting the cards that life deals me and playing with the hand that I’m dealt. Thanks for the analogy, Dad! I have always been the girl who wants to plan everything ahead of time. Go to this school for x years. Get this job in y years. Work for z years before having children. My journey has led me on many unexpected twists and turns, and if I always tried to follow plan x-y-z, I might miss out on some exciting opportunities!

For example, today I had a job interview that I was not expecting to get! A few months ago, I sent my cover letter and resume to an organization, not for any specific position, but just because I thought I’d be a great fit for the company. Last week, I received an e-mail from the organization asking me to apply for a director position! I was very shocked . . . in fact, I still am. I felt like I wasn’t qualified enough to interview for the position, and then I realized that I need to believe in my potential. Even though this career would be a challenge, I thrive on challenges! Why shouldn’t I be interviewed for a director position?

It makes sense that I’d question my “worth,” though. Isn’t that what I was doing all those years that I suffered from my eating disorder? I’m not good enough. I’m not thin enough. I can be better. Instead of, “I am Tammy. I have strengths and weaknesses. I am great just the way that I am.” I don’t give myself enough credit, and that ends now.

Do you give yourself enough credit? What opportunities have you shied away from out of the belief that you’re not qualified? Why not give those opportunities a shot, anyway? There’s nothing to lose!

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I interviewed for the position today, and I should hear by the end of the month. I really have no idea if I have what the organization is looking for, but I do know that I gave it my all, I was true to myself, and if they hire me, I’ll work my hardest! And if they don’t hire me, I didn’t lose a thing . . . and I did GAIN an interview experience.

I’m spending the rest of the afternoon de-compressing. I get pretty worked up for interviews — my legs get all tense like I just ran a few miles. :) I think I’m going to rent and watch “The Ugly Truth,” take a trip to Best Buy to buy “Up!” (because I know Carter and I will be watching it over and over again — have you seen it? It’s awesome!),  and then make a yummy dinner: a tuna burger and mozzarella panini and a veggie-nut-raisin salad with honey-mayo dressing. I already ate dessert — a chocolate Vitamuffin with vanilla ice cream . . . because some days (like interview days!) call for chocolate in the afternoon. :)

Have a great night!

Creamy Crunchy Yogurt Bowl Goodness

I called the insurance company this morning — and there’s basically nothing that they can do. I can file a complaint if I have any more problems with the dentist. Um, yeah, I’m not about to give him another chance to do something worth complaining about. So, all I can do now is write a letter to the administrative department so that hopefully the dentist will be “flagged” and others won’t experience the same terrible service that I experienced. Fun and games (note the sarcasm)!

This is just a quick post to share a delicious breakfast concoction with you. Breakfast is my favorite meal of the day — I wake up excited to eat breakfast! With options like yogurt and granola, creamy oats, berry pancakes and bagels with lox, breakfast is the meal that never disappoints!

Today’s yogurt bowl was just perfection . . . I’m telling you — perfection!!

First, here’s a less-than-ideal cell phone picture to tease you. I can’t wait to get my camera back!

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There were so many flavors and textures in the bowl, including:

1/2 cup Libby’s pure pumpkin, warmed in the microwave for about 30 seconds and mixed with 1 packet Splenda
1 container honey-flavored Oikos Greek yogurt — the honey is on the bottom — so good!

I thoroughly mixed the pumpkin, Splenda and yogurt . . . then topped it with:

2/3 cup Health Valley date almond granola — 190 calories and 2 grams of fat are great stats, and it’s delicious!
a handful of fresh blackberries
1 T almond butter, heated in the microwave on a plate for about 30 seconds, then drizzled over the granola and berries

I think the Oikos honey yogurt made this bowl — I never had it before this morning, but I’ll be buying lots more!

Have a great weekend!

Go With Your Gut

Today was a great day . . . for the most part. I started off the day with a trip to the dentist, who said I have a great set of teeth and absolutely no problems. That’s actually the bad part of my day. Wanna know why?

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The last dentist I went to, 6 months ago, told me that I had 2 cavities, one amongst the upper teeth and one amongst the lower teeth. I was shocked, because I had never had a cavity in my life. He showed me my x-rays and pointed out the “cavities.” I couldn’t see what he was pointing out — it all looked the same to me.

When I came back in a week later to have my “cavities” drilled and filled, he numbed the OPPOSITE side of my mouth from where he said my upper cavity was located. I reminded him that he said the cavity was on the other side of my mouth. His response was: “That one doesn’t look so bad. Give it 6 months of better brushing and flossing and it should go away.” He says this to the girl who brushes and flosses every single day, AT LEAST two times per day. Oh, and P.S., cavities don’t “go away.” They get worse.

My inclination was to get up and walk out of the office for a second opinion. But it was just a cavity, after all, and I didn’t want to be a baby. I should’ve gone with my gut.

Today, my new dentist looked at my x-rays and said that there was no indication whatsoever that I should have had ANYTHING drilled. He also said that all of my teeth looked perfect, and that the previous dentist’s fillings were very, VERY tiny.

“Does that mean it’s possible that I didn’t really have any cavities, and he just said I did?” I asked, implying that my previous dentist may have been out for my insurance company’s money.

“There’s no way to know FOR SURE after the fact,” said my new dentist, “but I will tell you that you made a very good decision in leaving your dentist. And you have GREAT teeth.”

That really p’d me off!! I now have missing chunks of tooth because some a-hole wanted my money. Why else would he have drilled on the opposite side of my mouth from where he initially found the “cavity?” I’m calling my insurance company tomorrow to tell them the story. I should have gone with my gut. ALWAYS GO WITH YOURS!

In happier news, I spent my evening in the kitchen, a delightful way to spend a night if you ask me! I whipped up a very fast and healthful dinner, adapting recipes from “Seafood Meals In Minutes” and “Perfect Vegetables.”

Please excuse my cell phone photos — I left my camera at my mom’s house the other night.

Sesame-encrusted haddock (to serve 1 person)

You could also use halibut or any other firm, delicate fish for this dish.

Ingredients:
1 6-oz haddock filet
2 tsp lite mayo
2 tsp sesame seeds
lemon pepper, according to your tastes (the more you use, the spicier it will taste)

Directions:
1. Preheat the oven to 425 degrees.
2. Mix mayo, sesame seeds and lemon pepper in a small bowl.
3. Put the fish in a baking dish, coat with the mayo mixture and bake, covered, for 15 minutes.

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Zucchini-Carrot-Spinach Medley (to serve 1 person)

Ingredients:
1 zucchini, ends cut off
sprinkling of shredded carrots
2-3 handfuls of spinach
3/4 tablespoon extra virgin olive oil
1 garlic clove, pressed
minced fresh basil leaves
sea salt and pepper

1. Hold one of the cut ends of the zucchini against a grater, and grate the entire vegetable.
2. Wrap paper towels around the zucchini and squeeze out the majority of the water.
3. Heat the olive oil in a skillet over medium-high heat, until it is lightly smoking.
4. Toss the zucchini, carrots and garlic in the skillet. Cook for about 6 minutes.
5. Toss in the spinach and basil and cook until the spinach is wilted, about 30 seconds to a minute.
6. Sprinkle with sea salt and pepper according to your tastes.

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The fish would have been absolutely fantastic, but I used too much lemon pepper. Go easy on the lemon pepper, and this is a quick and delish dish! The veggies were PERFECT. I wanted another plateful because they were just so tasty! Can’t wait to make this one for the hubby and impress him. :)

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After dinner, I baked chocolate chip cookies! I decided to make the real deal, no fake stuff. Well, I used Promise Light spread in place of butter, because that’s what I had on hand, but other than that, these were the real deal! I used the Nestle Toll House Recipe from allrecipes.com, and I changed the number of servings from 60 to 15 . . . because really, I don’t have the desire or the resources to bake 60 cookies! I omitted the nuts and scooped out 12, not 15, heaping tablespoons of cookie dough onto a baking sheet. Each PERFECT, chocolatey, soft-in-the-center cookie only has about 105 calories. I enjoyed 2 for dessert with a cup of Celestial Seasonings gingerbread spice tea.

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Started with 1, and went back for another! Really, really fantastic.

Here’s what I used:

1/2 cup and 1 tablespoon all-purpose flour
1/4 teaspoon baking soda
less than 1/4 teaspoon salt
1/4 cup Promise Light spread
3 tablespoons granulated sugar
3 tablespoons packed brown sugar
1/4 teaspoon vanilla extract
1 large egg
3 oz (about 1 cup) Semi-Sweet Chocolate Morsels

And here are the directions for making 12 105-calorie cookies:

1. Preheat oven to 375 degrees F.
2. Combine flour, baking soda and salt in small bowl.
3. Beat butter, granulated sugar, brown sugar and vanilla extract in large mixer bowl until creamy. Add egg and beat well.
4. Gradually beat in flour mixture. Stir in morsels.
5. Drop 12 rounded tablespoons onto ungreased baking sheets.
6. Bake for 9-11 minutes or until golden brown. It took 11 minutes in our oven.

Give the cookies about 10 minutes to cool, and then enjoy!

I must be in the Christmas spirit already! I was listening to Christmas songs last night, now I’m baking cookies, and this weekend, Carter and I are going to a Christmas open house at Waterloo Gardens. Waterloo Gardens is a great gardening and home decor shop, and this weekend is when the Christmas display is set up for the first time of the season. The entire store is filled with decorated trees and Christmas decor, and it’s just magical! I go every year.

On Saturday night, we’re going to the movies with our good friends, my brother, my brother’s fiance, and the sweet little Egg Man to see “The Christmas Carol” in IMAX 3D!

And on Sunday, we’re going to an apple festival at Peddler’s Village, a quaint shopping village with unique gift shops, fun events and delicious food! Bring on the holiday season — I’m jollier than St. Nick!

Sprinkle On The Fun

I’m currently listening to Christmas music on the Internet . . . because I can’t wait for the radio stations to start playing it! The thing I love about Christmas songs is that they always put me in such a peaceful, lovey-dovey mood. There aren’t many Christmas songs that I don’t like, and with less than two months until Christmas, I want to savor the music every chance that I can! I never get sick of it. In fact, I usually start crying when the radio stations change over from Christmas music to regular music again.

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Today I finished my graduate school application! I applied to a master’s degree program in counseling psychology, with a specialization in elementary and secondary school counseling. I’m SO, SO excited now that I’ve made my decision. Now, I just have to wait and see . . . I hope I get accepted! You never know what the admissions officers may or may not be looking for, so I’m keeping my fingers crossed that they see the potential in me. You all sure do see the potential! Thank you, thank you, thank you for all of your kind words. I love how willing many of you are to let me know that you enjoy my posts, that I’m helping you and inspiring you, and that you believe I will make an effective eating disorders counselor. Thanks, my blog buddies! I sleep better at night knowing that I’ve touched a few people each day. I never thought I’d get better, let alone help others get better. Ladies and gentlemen, recovery is within everyone’s grasp — let’s all continue to help each other get there!

And when you’re recovered, one of the perks is going to eat ice cream without a twinge of guilt! :) If you’ve been following my blog, you all know I love my ice cream and frozen yogurt! A few days ago, I mentioned that I’d be reviewing Sprinkles Frozen Yogurt in West Chester, PA. For those of you who live in the area, I recommend a stop at this fun, do-it-yourself frozen yogurt shop. It’s a great spot for date night, girls night out, family get-togethers, birthday parties . . . any outing will do!

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Though I wasn’t blown away by any of the frozen yogurt flavors, I also only tried 3 flavors. There are 16 flavors on the menu at any one time, and many more than that in total. All flavors except the creamy peanut butter flavor and the cake batter flavor are fat free, and there are also two, no-sugar-added and fat-free flavors: pure vanilla and milk chocolate. I tried the creamy peanut butter, the cake batter and the New York cheesecake. The cake batter and the New York cheesecake weren’t extremely flavorful, so they were just ok, but the creamy peanut butter was great because it was packed with peanut butteriness! I topped my frozen yogurts with chocolate chip cookie dough and Reese’s peanut butter cups, both of which were yummy, of course.

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I’d say that the main reason to go to Sprinkles isn’t so much for the flavors (I still prefer TCBY, Dairy Queen and Chester Springs Creamery), but for the fun experience. That being said, I only tried 3 flavors, and 1 out of 3 was great . . . so you’ll most likely find something you enjoy, too.

When you get there, you have your choice of two cup sizes — large and larger, ha! — or a cup with a waffle bowl in it. Then you pump out your own frozen yogurt — as few or as many flavors as you want — and add your toppings — also as few or as many as you want. It’s great if you like to be in control over your own concoction, or if you just want to be creative.

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After you’re done concocting, you put your frozen yogurt creations on a scale and pay by the ounce.

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I’m obviously a happy customer, because I’m planning on going back and trying some more flavors. I’ll let you know if I find any more faves!

If you live in the area, have any of you checked out Sprinkles yet? If you’re not in the area, do you have a create-your-own ice cream shop like this near you?

Sweet, ice cream dreams to all!

I’m dreaming of a white Christmas . . . yep, still have the Christmas tune-age going. :) Love it!

What’s More Fun: Making Oats or Making Decisions?

I started my day off with the most heavenly bowl of banana ricotta pecan oats. Thanks to Katharina of Katharina’s Food Adventures for the idea! This is definitely one of my favorite breakfasts I’ve ever eaten . . . that’s how delicious it tasted to me. I was afraid to try it because I didn’t think I’d like the cold banana mixture with the hot oats, but I was completely wrong — the cold/hot combo is what made this so fantastic. I’m glad I tried it! I’ll definitely be making this frequently.

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Here’s what I did to make the oatmeal. I basically followed Katharina’s recipe:

1. Last night, I sliced a banana and put the pieces in a tupperware. I covered the tupperware and put it in the freezer to let the banana freeze overnight.
2. In the morning, I heated a saucepan over medium heat and added 1/2 cup rolled oats and 1 cup water.
3. While the oats cooked (I find that they are usually done in about 7 to 8 minutes), I mashed together the frozen banana and 1/2 cup fat free ricotta. (If you don’t mash it first, it makes it difficult to blend — I know, I tried. You could also just use a food processor — then you wouldn’t have to mash first.) Then, I put the mashed mixture in the blender with 1/4 tsp vanilla extract and a packet of Splenda. I pureed the mixture until it was creamy.
4. I toasted about 2 tablespoons of pecans by putting them in a little glass dish in the microwave for about a minute-and-a-half. Then I chopped up the pecans with a knife.
5. Put the oats in a bowl and combine with your sweetener of your choice. I used a packet of Splenda, but you could use sugar, honey, brown sugar or whatever floats your boat.
6. Top the oats with the cold banana ricotta mixture.
7. Top the banana ricotta mixture with the chopped and toasted pecans.

The contrast of the crunch and the creamy, the cold and the hot, and the sweet and the nutty made this one of my favorite breakfasts I’ve had in a long time. I can’t believe how excited I am over a bowl of oats. LOL. But starting the day with a delicious breakfast is a great way to start the day.

I’m also excited today for other reasons. I came to a career decision over the weekend! I didn’t end up creating a pro and con list for each career as planned. Instead, I took a good friend’s advice. I sat quietly and asked God what I should do, where I would make the most difference, what I’d be best at, and what would fulfill me the most. Then, I stopped thinking (well, as best as I can stop thinking — not my strong point) and started listening. Now, I don’t usually do things like this, so it felt really weird to me. But as the day went on, things kept happening that easily pushed me towards my decision.

I decided to read the course descriptions for the nutrition classes because I hadn’t done that yet. The classes didn’t appeal to me the way that I thought that they would — in fact, they frightened me a little bit . . . they seemed so scientific . . . and I am a person who is driven by both my intellect and my emotions.

Then, while I stood outside and handed out Halloween candy on Saturday night, I ended up in a long conversation with my neighbor. She told me about her eighth-grade daughter, who is going through that difficult period of adolescence when we’re all trying to carve out niches and identities for ourselves. I found myself really involved with what my neighbor was telling me, and I wanted to figure out a solution and reach out to her daughter. I remember adolescence so well — not an easy time.

While we stood and talked, the owner of Cupcakes Gourmet, a shop I’ve blogged about before, came by with her children to trick-or-treat. I told the owner that I had blogged about her shop, and my neighbor was excited to learn that I had a blog. She then began to share with me some of her own food- and weight-related interests and concerns. I was so interested in her story and told her briefly about my own struggles. I wanted to share with her everything I’ve learned, help her to make the cognitive and behavioral changes that took me so long to make, help her to live the life she wants to and is capable of living. Not once did I think about meal plans or sharing with her what she should eat or what she shouldn’t eat . . . because that’s not what getting over an eating disorder is all about. It’s about changing the way we think about things and gradually changing our behaviors, one small step at a time.

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That’s when it hit me. When I worked with my Registered Dietitian, what helped me the most wasn’t the meal plans she devised. Yes, that helped, and I think understanding what to eat and how much to eat is an important part of recovery. What helped the most was when my R.D. helped me to modify the way I THINK about food.

When I was in college, I knew I wanted to be a psychology major after I took my first psychology class. I loved it, and I just GOT it. I’m so fascinated by the way that people think and the way that they behave. I’m fascinated by the ways we can modify our thoughts and behaviors, even after years of thinking and behaving in maladaptive ways. I want to help people to THINK differently, whether it’s about food, or exercise, or identity, or relationships. I want to connect, to inspire, to relate. I want to be a counselor!!

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When I made my decision, a huge weight was lifted off of my shoulders. I’m so excited to pursue this path, and I think this is one of the most well thought-out decisions I’ve ever made in my life. Of course, my goal and my hope is that I will work with individuals who are struggling with eating disorders . . . and guide them towards their own recovery. But I can see myself as a school counselor, too, working with children and teens to guide them as they discover who they are and who they want to be. I can imagine myself working as a career counselor (God knows I’ve explored enough careers!) or working with couples and families. I can picture myself helping those who are struggling with other types of addictions, such as drug and alcohol addictions.

Today, I’ll be working on my graduate school application for counseling psychology! In the meantime, I have applied for a part-time job that I want so badly it almost hurts. LOL. I’m keeping all my fingers and toes crossed that I will get called in for an interview. Plus, I may be working with my R.D. part-time! I can’t wait to see how that develops . . . right now, I’m working on some ideas that I will be proposing to her this week.

Lots of unique opportunities. I’m very excited to see where they all will lead. Thanks for following my journey! And thank you, my friend (you know who you are!), for suggesting that I take a break from thinking to do a little listening.

Eating Disorder Recovery: Is It Even Possible?

I hope you all had a wonderful Halloween! Carter and I didn’t get to go to the zoo or the festival that we hoped to attend due to the misty weather, but we thoroughly enjoyed cooking dinner, baking banana pecan muffins, and giving out candy to all the adorable children! I also savored a Reese’s Peanut Butter Cup, one of my favorite Halloween treats.

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Look how cute the Egg Man was in his Mickey costume! In case this is your first time being introduced to the Egg Man, his real name is Zane, and he’s my brother’s fiance’s baby boy . . . and my nephew-to-be!

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A reader wrote to me over the weekend to let me know that my blog has helped her to “take one more step closer to having a healthy relationship with food.” I was so touched that she took the time to write to me and share her thoughts. She also brought up a FANTASTIC issue that inspired me to write this post.

She said, “I also struggled with an eating disorder, and although it no longer has control over my life, I don’t believe I am fully recovered. (I don’t know if I believe that  a complete recovery from an ED is even possible).”

I’m so glad she brought up this topic — it’s a great topic to discuss! Is a complete recovery from an eating disorder even possible?

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This time last year, if you had asked me that question, I would have told you that I didn’t believe complete recovery from an eating disorder was possible. I often told my husband and my family that while I believed that someday other things (like children) would take priority in my life and that my eating disorder would improve, I didn’t think that complete recovery was truly possible. I thought that I would ALWAYS have disordered thoughts, disordered patterns of eating, days when I binged, and I didn’t believe I’d ever want or be able to stop counting calories.

I even believed that the people I had met who SAID that they were recovered were not truly recovered. The people I met who said they were recovered were extremely thin, or they talked and thought about food all of the time, or they weren’t willing to share how they had recovered . . . so I didn’t believe that I had ever met someone who had ACTUALLY recovered.

Keep this in mind . . . some people who you meet who say they are recovered may NOT be, but they may REALLY WANT TO BE . They may want to be recovered so badly that they have fooled themselves into thinking that they are recovered. I do think that this can be a valid step on the way to recovery . . . wanting to be better is the first step towards actually becoming better. So I’m not knocking the person who says she’s recovered and isn’t! She will get there, and wanting to get there is an excellent first step.

For example, last year before my wedding, many of my friends and family members were concerned that I was “anorexic” when I lost a lot of weight prior to the wedding. This destroyed my spirits, and I INSISTED that I did not have an eating disorder. I felt sad when people labeled me as an “anorexic,” because I did not fit the DSM (Diagnostic and Statistical Manual of Mental Disorders) criteria for anorexia. I also believed that I had finally found a solution for my disorder, which is correctly called “eating disorder not otherwise specified,” so when individuals “accused” me of still having a disorder, I felt very disheartenened.

You see, I believed that my biggest problem was my binge episodes. When I binged, I felt incredibly ashamed, not to mention so sick to my stomach that sometimes I couldn’t even make it into work.

During the months prior to my wedding, I got my bingeing under control by counting my calories and never going over the limit that I set for myself. So I thought . . . well, if my worst problem is counting calories, that can’t be so bad, right? I tried not to think about the fact that I was terrified to go out to eat or that I want to bed feeling famished some nights. I tried not to think about the fact that I labeled some foods as “good” and some foods as “bad,” and that my diet was becoming more and more limited with every passing day. I tried not to think about the fact that I didn’t eat certain foods if I couldn’t find the nutritional stats for those foods. I didn’t cook anything that had more than a few ingredients because it was too difficult to measure out the foods and spices and calculate the calories. I didn’t go to any restaurant unless I could locate the nutritional facts and make sure to stay within my calorie “budget.” I drank sodas all day long because the carbonation made me feel full. I justified all of my disordered thoughts and behaviors by saying, “This is how I’ve managed to keep my bingeing under control.” During the months prior to our wedding, I insisted I did not have an eating disorder because I rarely binged and because my weight still fell in my “healthy weight range.” I WANTED to be better.

But I wasn’t recovered. After the wedding had passed and the pressure of the planning and the dress fittings and the family drama was behind me, I began bingeing much more frequently, sometimes 3 or 4 times per week. I realized that the reason I hadn’t binged for so many months WASN’T because of the controls I had set up for myself, but because I was terrified that one binge would lead to another and another until my dress was too tight. I began to admit to myself that shutting out my friends and family so that I didn’t have to go out to restaurants was NOT healthy. I knew that, even if I didn’t meet the DSM criteria for anorexia or bulimia or binge eating disorder, food and control and calorie counting had taken over my life . . . and I did indeed still have an eating disorder — an eating disorder called “eating disorder not otherwise specified.”

So . . . it is possible that you will encounter someone who says he or she is recovered, and that person may not be recovered. But don’t lose hope! Don’t lose hope for that person . . . and don’t lose hope for your own recovery! Full recovery is possible, and I am here to say that I am a true example of someone who is fully recovered. When you are fully recovered, you believe it with your whole heart, your whole soul, your whole being . . . your family and friends believe it . . . some of your personality from your childhood will begin to re-emerge . . . everything in life will feel a little bit easier, like it takes less effort . . . you will just know. You will feel light and free. If you have nightmares about bingeing or purging or restricting, those nightmares will begin to diminish in intensity and frequency.

Now, let me define full recovery. I used to believe that full recovery meant that I would never again worry about food or calories, that I would never again eat more than I needed, that I would never again eat until I felt full, that I would never again feel hungry. I believed that full recovery meant that I would have a perfect relationship with food, that eating healthfully and mindfully would be effortless.

There is no such thing as a perfect relationship with food. Being fully recovered means acknowledging and accepting that you will never have a perfect relationship with food. No one has a perfect relationship with food, not even a person who has never had an eating disorder.

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Think about someone you know who you believe has the healthiest relationship with food out of all of the people that you know. I will share my own example with you . . . I think about a guy I know from high school who was always lean and fairly athletic. He always had a big appetite and never said no to a sandwich or a banana. He always seemed to be very in touch with what he really wanted to eat. In general, he ate when he was hungry and stopped when he felt satisfied. Did he have a perfect relationship with food? Of course not! Did he ever eat too much and feel overly stuffed? Of course! Did he ever make poor nutritional choices? Of course — he ate plenty of pizza, hoagies, and Slurpees! Did he ever eat when he wasn’t hungry, or because he was bored, or just because cookies looked tasty? Of course! Does that mean he had an eating disorder? Of course not!

Now think about the example that you came up with. Does this person ever eat too much and feel overly stuffed? Does he/she ever make poor nutritional choices? Does he/she ever eat when not hungry? Out of boredom? Just because the food looks tasty? I guarantee you that the answer to at least one of these questions is “yes!”

Full recovery does not mean having a perfect relationship with food. It means that you are human, and that sometimes you eat too much and feel stuffed, and sometimes you eat because you’re bored, and sometimes you make poor nutritional choices. Full recovery means that, in general, you eat when you are hungry and stop when you are satisfied. It means that you eat a wide variety of foods. But it also means that you are human, and you don’t ALWAYS eat when you are hungry and stop when you are satisfied, and you don’t ALWAYS eat a wide variety of foods. But full recovery also means that your mind and life are not consumed by food. You don’t constantly obsess over what you’ve eaten or what you haven’t eaten. You can go out and eat with your friends and family. You don’t restrict to the point that you feel you need to binge. But sometimes, you overeat to the point where you may even feel uncomfortable. That’s ok! That’s human! You accept it and you move on!

I am typically careful in my posts about saying that I am “recovered.” I do think that recovery is an ongoing process, because I think that I learn new things every day. But I also think that EVERYONE, eating disorder or not, is learning new things every day. Learning is part of growing and becoming more aware of oneself.

So . . . I like to say that I am fully recovered AND always capable of having slips AND always in the process of learning and becoming more self-aware. These are just some of the ways that I know I am fully recovered:

1. I no longer count calories. Sometimes, I have a general awareness of the calories that are in my food. For example, if I bake muffins or cookies, I like to know how many calories are in them so that I know what constitutes a serving size. But, in general, I eat when I feel hungry, and I stop when I feel satisfied.

2. I eat a wide variety of foods from all of the food groups, and I know that eating plenty of fruits and veggies is one of the best things I can do for my health. I also enjoy treats, like ice cream or cookies, on a daily basis and in moderation. No food is off limits.

3. When I get a craving for something, I eat exactly what it is that I want. If I want a blizzard from Dairy Queen, I eat it . . . just not every single day. Just knowing that I am “allowed” to give in to my cravings has resulted in less cravings and no more bingeing.

4. Sometimes, I eat for emotional reasons. When I eat for emotional reasons, I acknowledge the emotion that I am feeling and I tell myself that no food and no amount of food will satisfy that emotion. Acknowledging my feelings often ends the emotional eating. I find more productive ways to deal with the emotion, like taking a hot shower or talking to someone on the phone or going for a walk or writing.

But sometimes, I just let myself emotionally eat, because I am human. Generally, when I “emotionally eat,” I eat more than I need and sometimes I eat to the point that I feel “stuffed.” But just acknowledging my emotions and fulfilling my need for something creamy or crunchy or sweet or salty prevents me from bingeing. Once in a while, it’s ok to eat for emotional reasons like boredom. If you are emotionally eating multiple days a week, then it may be beneficial to seek outside help to help you sort through your emotions. Sometimes we need to acknowledge the stressors in our life and seek help so that we can respond to those stressors in productive ways.

5. I LOVE food and I LOVE cooking. I still think about food a lot, but for completely different reasons and in completely different ways. Food no longer takes over and interrupts my life . . . instead, it enhances my life. It’s a fun hobby. I love to come up with creative new recipes and buy new cookbooks. I love to try new foods, new flavors, new products and new restaurants.

6. I feel hunger and I feel satiety. Simple, right? When I had an eating disorder, I did not get feelings of hunger or satisfaction. I just ate until I filled my calorie “quota” for the day.

7. I enjoy cooking dinner and going out to restaurants with family and friends. I enjoy the company, the conversation, AND the food.

These are just a few of the many ways that my life has changed since I have recovered. Do I still have slips? Sure! Sometimes I start to feel feelings of guilt when I emotionally eat or when I make a poor nutritional choice. But I quickly adjust my thoughts. It is normal, it is human, and sometimes it’s just fun or comforting to eat when you’re not truly hungry! Eating out of boredom or some other emotion is not an everyday occurrence, so I tell myself, “Don’t sweat it!” And I move on.

How do I know that full recovery from an eating disorder is possible? I know because I am there. I am free. Full recovery is a set of beliefs and attitudes, a feeling of freedom, a re-emergence of the identity that you once had prior to your eating disorder.

I DO NOT have a perfect relationship with food. No one does. More importantly, I acknowledge and accept that there is no such thing as a perfect relationship with food, and that acceptance does not frighten me — it delights me. I defeated my eating disorder when I accepted and embraced imperfection.

Yes, full recovery is possible! Yes, that means you!!

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No Such Thing As Off Limits

On my blog, obviously I write about topics that are of interest to me, and I also try to think about topics that will interest you, my readers. I’m delighted that you enjoyed my “Interview With A Dietitian” post. Though I went on the interview to gather some answers for myself, I thought, “Why not share this with my readers?” You all enjoy food and wellness blogs, so I knew you’d probably like reading about a Registered Dietitian, especially if you’re considering going into the profession yourself. Let me know if you have any other questions that weren’t answered by her interview, and I’ll do my best to get the answers for you.

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Yesterday, I shadowed and interviewed a high school counselor. This is another career that I’ve been interested in ever since college, actually! I went to college to study marine biology — my goal was to become a marine mammal trainer — but I didn’t like my biology classes and I LOVED and excelled at my psychology classes. I also found adolescence to be a particularly challenging time in my life, so I thought, why not help others who are going through this difficult, yet potentially very magical, stage of life? I observed a school counselor a few years ago and thought that the career seemed like a great fit for me, and yesterday, I had the same feeling. Not only did the career seem like a great fit for me, I could actually “see” myself in that counselor’s chair, talking with the students, parents and teachers, working on college applications, helping students make career choices, etc. When the teens came for their appointments with the counselor, we’d be introduced, and I naturally found myself talking with them and asking them questions out of true interest about their lives . . . and they naturally found themselves opening up to and warming up to me. Though there are challenges to this career . . . bureaucracy, politics, difficult teachers and administration, parents who don’t care, students who are apathetic, depressed, addicted to drugs, suicidal, or who are facing other difficulties . . . overall, I think that this career seems very rewarding and very ME. Every job has its challenges, and I just so happen to think that a school counselor’s challenges are challenges that I’m ready to face.

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This process of shadowing and interviewing different professionals in the field has been so eye-opening. Now it’s a matter of making the difficult decision about which path I’m going to pursue. This weekend, I’m going to make lists of pros and cons for each occupation I’m thinking about pursuing — counselor (specializing in eating disorders), school counselor, R.D., health educator and personal trainer — and see if there is an obvious winner.

In the meantime, it’s Halloween weekend! Do you have any fun plans for the weekend? Carter and I have a few ideas up in the air — we’re thinking about going to an outdoor Halloween festival or to the zoo during the day, and then we’d like to give out candy to the neighborhood children at night. It all depends on the weather — hopefully it won’t rain tomorrow!

Speaking of Halloween, it’s my first eating-disorder-free Halloween — had to bring it up! Each holiday this year is a new benchmark for me. I’m especially excited for Thanksgiving and Christmas! Halloween has never been much of an issue for me, because candies and chocolates were never really trigger foods for me, unless I was in “binge mode.” Anything became a trigger food for me when I was in binge mode. My attitude was: If I “screwed up,” I may as well keep eating . . . obviously, not such a healthy attitude. I grew up thinking that there are “good” foods and that there are “bad” foods, and that eating “bad foods” made me a “bad person,” so the cycle of deprivation and indulgence became a dangerous and unwelcome part of my life.

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If you’re worried about your self-control getting out of control at Halloween, during the holidays, or just during a typical day . . . I’d be happy to share with you a few tips that I’ve learned. Though it may sound difficult, the most important step you can take to stop the cycle of deprivation, overindulgence and guilt is to change the way you think about trigger foods. A trigger food is anything that you believe you shouldn’t eat because once you start eating it you can’t stop. I used to have tons of trigger foods: ice cream, chocolate chip cookies, granola, pizza, peanut butter . . . I could go on and on, but those were a few biggies.

It took time and patience for me to de-stigmatize these foods and take them down off the pedestal that I had them on. For example, I eat a variety of delicious granolas several times a week for breakfast. I portion out a half cup serving, but my R.D. told me that I don’t even have to do that — she taught me how to eyeball a portion size, and more importantly, how to listen to my body. Sometimes, a 1/4 cup might feel like enough. Other times, 3/4 cup or 1 cup might be necessary to satisfy me. The point is, granola is no longer a trigger food for me because I know that I can eat it every single day.

I also eat ice cream after dinner almost every night. Some nights, I treat myself with a big waffle cone full of ice cream or even a blizzard from Dairy Queen or a shiver from TCBY. When I want a cookie, I eat one or two with a glass of warm milk. And if I’m really having a cookie craving, I’ll eat more, and I don’t beat myself up over it. Eating more than the body “needs” once in a while is not going to make you gain weight. And for me, learning how to eat more than I “need” without feeling guilt ended my binges. I’d much rather eat a half dozen chocolate chip cookies than a half dozen chocolate chip cookies, plus a pint of ice cream, plus a bag of granola, plus several slices of bread with peanut butter, plus, and plus, and plus until I feel sick and am barely cognizant that I’m even eating anymore.

Changing my beliefs and my core way of thinking about food ended the binges and changed my life. Sometimes, I had to work through my unhealthful thoughts out loud so that my husband could help me turn them into healthful thoughts. For example: “I’m still hungry and I’m really craving ice cream but I’ve already eaten enough today and I shouldn’t eat it. I’ll just have a small scoop of fat free ice cream from the freezer.” We both know that eating around a craving never leads to a happy ending. So, I change that statement to: “I’m still hungry and I’m really craving ice cream, so I’m going to go out and buy an ice cream cone that will truly satisfy that craving. Some days I feel hungrier than others, and some days, I want to satisfy my mind by giving into a craving. I will enjoy my ice cream and there is no reason to feel any guilt whatsoever.” Then, I go eat ice cream and I don’t give one thought to the calories, and I don’t feel one ounce of guilt . . . and I enjoy every single bite . . . and I feel satisfied.

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In fact, there is a new frozen yogurt shop called Sprinkles Frozen Yogurt that is opening today in West Chester, PA, and when my husband gets home from work tonight, we’re going to check it out! I’m very excited about it . . . it’s one of those shops where you fill up your own cup and dish up your own toppings. I can’t wait to take some photos and share a review with you!

In other news . . . I just won a giveaway on Tina’s blog, Carrots ‘N’ Cake, and I won 10 coupons to try 10 different Nasoya products! Carter and I love tofu, so I’m thrilled to try out some new nutritious foods! Plus . . . I never win anything! :)

And . . . here a few food highlights from the past few days to whet your appetite. I love beautiful food photos:

Ahhh, the once forbidden granola. This is a bowl of Stonyfield Farm pumpkin pie yogurt, 1/2 C Libby’s pure pumpkin (warmed up in the microwave for about 30 or 40 seconds), 1 packet of Splenda, pumpkin pie Spice, 1/2 C Artisan Hawaiian granola from The Fresh Market, and fresh raspberries. This was a wonderful combination of flavors.

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This omelet, though it fell apart, was one of my favorite omelet combos yet. This is 4 egg whites, American cheese, chopped red onion and chopped tomato, and I sprinkled it all with salt and pepper. Tomatoes and onions were meant for omelets.

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Do you want more exciting salads in your life? Try this one on for size! This is mixed greens, shredded carrots, chopped cucumbers, a tablespoon or two of honey roasted almonds, a tablespoon of dry roasted pumpkin seeds, fresh raspberries, and Earth & Vine Provisions honey pear vinaigrette. Say buh-bye to boring salads!

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And my favorite eat of the week was this lox sandwich. I’m very sad that I only have 2 slices of my whole wheat challah left from Ricki’s Cookies. This challah makes the PERFECT sandwich bread! The price of the challah is great, but we can’t order the bread TOO often because the shipping is about 8 bucks. I topped the bread with fat free cream cheese, mixed greens, cucumber, and smoked sockeye salmon from Wegman’s. Pressed in a panini press, this sandwich was perfection!

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I must be sure to do my last 2 slices of challah justice by creating the ultimate sandwich! Such pressure! :)

Have a wonderful and safe Halloween!

Interview With A Registered Dietitian

As part of my career exploration process, I interviewed Tara Simpson, a Registered Dietitian, Board Certified Specialist in Sports Dietetics, Licensed Dietitian and Nutritionist, and founder of and Director of Client Care at Nutritional Health Systems in Wayne, PA. She is a well-regarded expert in the areas of eating disorders, sports nutrition and nutritional counseling.

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In just a few short months, Tara helped me win my 15-year battle with EDNOS (Eating Disorder Not Otherwise Specified). Not only is she a knowledgeable dietitian, she also is a skilled counselor, and her nutrition knowledge and counseling abilities make her an asset to the field. She knows exactly what to say, and more importantly, what not to say to a person recovering from an eating disorder. Had Tara been a hard-core “eat this, not that” type of dietitian, I don’t think I would have recovered so successfully. Instead, her approach is “everything in moderation,” and I believe this approach is KEY to overcoming an eating disorder.

I was so grateful when Tara accepted my request to interview her about the R.D. occupation because I think she is a perfect role model of all the attributes that an R.D. should possess. I was so energized after our interview and more excited than ever about this potential career path. I still have to mull over a lot of ideas in my head, but this path seems like it might be a very nice fit for me. I learned a great deal of information that will assist me should I decide to pursue a degree in dietetics and a career as an R.D. Though I have not posted our entire interview, I posted those questions and answers that I felt would be most helpful to my readers. If you’re interested in pursuing a career as an R.D., or if you’re just interested to learn more about the field, read on. Perhaps Tara has answered some of your own questions.

Following are some excerpts from our interview:

Tammy: Before entering this profession, how can I know if this is a field I’ll even enjoy? Are there certain qualities that you think an R.D. should have or certain things that you think an R.D. should enjoy?

Tara: Well, the complicated part is that there are so many areas you can go into. You could do food service management where  you manage the kitchen or the cafeteria in a hospital.  Or . . .you can have an office job and do no direct patient care, as a clinical manager, and oversee other dietitians in a hospital.  You could do one-on-one patient care in a hospital and see a lot of patients briefly, or you could see patients long-term and counsel one-on-one in an outpatient setting or private practice. There are so many areas that no matter what personality you have or what you like you can probably find a niche. You could write articles for a magazine and not ever see a client. You could write a book. There are so many things you could do that are different. You don’t have to work with people if you don’t want to.  So, there aren’t specific things you have to like and do because you can always branch out.

Being an R.D. is a general career.  If you decide to specialize in a specific area of nutrition, you can always change your mind and go back to another setting, so it’s nice. I think the obvious difference between working with people in a hospital, where you see cardiac patients, renal patients, etc…, and working one-on-one in private practice or in an eating disorder unit is that you are able to develop a relationship with the patients when you get to work with them for longer term.  I want to have relationships with people and in the hospital it’s really hard to do that because your patients are there for such a brief time period. You see them once or maybe twice and you never see them again. You don’t know if they listened to you. You don’t know if they cared. You really can’t develop a relationship unless there’s a rare case where a person is there for a few months. Working with eating disorders in an inpatient setting or at a place like Renfrew — they’re there for multiple weeks or multiple months at a time — you can develop a relationship.  The ability to develop relationships is why I like the work I do.

So, to answer your question, I think that the qualities you should have or the things that you should enjoy to be an R.D. depend on what area of nutrition you work in.

Tammy: So are there any qualities that a prospective R.D. should have that would make you say, “If you don’t have this particular quality, you shouldn’t go into this field?” I know science is a big part of it, but some people are afraid to go into nutrition because of the scientific aspect of it.

Tara: I’ve known people who feel that they can’t become an R.D because they have to take anatomy and physiology and organic chemistry. I’m guessing that in any field there are going to be classes that you’re not especially looking forward to.  Therefore, I can’t really think of one particular quality that you would need to enter the field.

There are some other requirements of being an R.D. After you pass the R.D. exam, you need 75 credits every 5 years (that’s the current requirement) of continuing education. There are many different ways to complete these credits.

You can be as involved or not involved as you want to be in the field. . . you can join the American Dietetic Association and within the Association, you can join as many subgroups as you would like. I belong to three of these groups . . . one is called SCAN — it’s more sports nutrition and wellness — and I also belong to an entrepreneur one.  The third one that I belong to is for behavioral health, which includes eating disorders. There are tons of them . . . there’s one for cancer, there’s one for diabetes, etc. When you join, you get a newsletter specific to each area with research, updates and book updates. You could run to be the President or Chairperson of a subgroup. I read the newsletters that are sent to me in order to keep updated. There are also conferences that each group hosts.

After becoming an R.D., there are also specialty certifications that you can obtain. For example, if you’re interested in diabetes, you can become a C.D.E., a Certified Diabetes Educator. They’re constantly coming out with new ones. About 5 or 6 years ago, they came out with the Certified Specialist in Sports Dietetics that I have. You can specialize, and usually if you take one of those exams, it gives you your full 75 continuing education credits. The exam is good for 5 years and then you have to retake the test. They give you an outline of topics or categories and a list of books and resources. You just study on your own and take the exam.

Tammy: If I attend a bachelor’s level dietetics program, do my internship, and become an R.D., do you think there are going to be good job opportunities in this field in a few years?

Tara: I do. I heard a rumor that they are going to require Registered Dietitians to have master’s degrees. From my experience, when applying for a job, I haven’t seen it matter whether or not you have a master’s degree. That would be the only glitch [if they require a master's degree]. Right now, I think that there are a lot of job opportunities.

Specializing is a little harder. Right after my internship, I wanted to go into eating disorders. Everyone told me that I shouldn’t and that I should do 5 years or so of clinical work, in a hospital, and get experience. I really didn’t want to do that, so I started looking for a job in the area that I was interested in. I had a list of all the eating disorder facilities in the country . . . there were probably about 50 that I had on my list, that I found online. I called all of them. Out of all of them, three had job openings. One wouldn’t even talk to me because I had no eating disorders experience and I interviewed with the other two . . . and I got a job.

To specialize, you usually need to have experience. But, that’s the case in any field. If you don’t have experience, then how do you get a job? And if you don’t have a job, how do you get experience? It’s a Catch-22.  So, sometimes you might need to work in an area that isn’t your first choice, just to get experience.

Tammy: Do you think it’s necessary or advantageous to get a master’s degree?

Tara: Sometimes if people have a bachelor’s in something else they can go straight into a master’s program and then do the joint master’s internship. So, if you could find something like that where it would be the same amount of time, that would be nice. It’s so questionable because there are these rumors, but these rumors have been going on for a while. Right now, if you walked in and tried to get a job (with only your R.D and no master’s degree), I don’t think it would make a difference. I don’t know . . . if there are three applicants and two have a master’s and you don’t . . . are they going to disregard you? I don’t know. They didn’t when I was looking for a job.

Tammy: Are there certain places where there are more job openings for Registered Dietitians than others?

Tara: I think the hospitals are the easiest places to find jobs. There is a high turnover because people are moving on or are specializing and leaving.

Tammy: Is it difficult to start your own practice? What’s involved in that?

Tara: The hardest part is establishing referrals . . . and it’s all about connections and who you know. To get your R.D. and then open a practice “cold turkey”  would be very, very difficult. In my situation, it worked out because I worked in an inpatient setting for many years, first. That’s where I met a lot of the therapists and doctors in the area who treated eating disorders. Initially, I was working at the hospital full-time and then I was doing this [one-on-one counseling in a private practice] two nights a week, after work. And then I slowly cut my hours at the hospital and built my hours here. Once I had a client base, their therapists started refering other people to me and their doctors started refering other people to me . . . and those clients would refer other people to me . . . and now it’s this whole network.  And now, I’m doing some sports nutrition, so I’ve had the opportunity to get to know a lot of coaches in the area. The point is: referrals are how you get the patients.

Advertising, I found, is very difficult. Some of the general advertising methods that you think about, like putting an ad in a magazine, haven’t worked for me. People want to say, “I know her,” or “I know someone who’s been to her.”

Tammy: Is this a good career for a mom and/or for someone who wants to work part-time?

Tara: Yes. I think even if you are in a hospital, there are a lot of part-time positions. For example, at some hospitals, they are looking for someone on weekends. And, obviously, if you’re in private practice, you can make your own hours.  It’s on your own time.  If  your schedule is booked and you want to come in on a Saturday morning to see a few more clients, you can.

Tammy: Are there similar careers or other pathways to getting involved with nutrition or eating disorders? Are there other ways to get involved that I should consider?

Tara: If you want to be working in the nutrition field, obviously you do need to get an R.D., especially if you want to know that you can always get a job. If you walk into any hospital with an R.D., you’re qualified. There are a lot of people out there who call themselves nutritionists who don’t have an R.D.

Tammy: And I think people know to look for an R.D. I mean, I did. I’ve heard of this new thing, too: wellness coaches. That sounds cool, but can’t anybody do that?

Tara: It may be faddy, too. It may go in and out. Especially in this economy, I don’t know how much business they’re getting.

Tammy: Do you think, in this economy, nutrition is staying strong? Do you think it’s going anywhere?

Tara: I haven’t seen or heard that it has. I know that hospitals still REQUIRE it. I haven’t had a problem here. It’s like a doctor’s office — have they had problems? I don’t think so. I think it’s similar to that. I haven’t seen any difference.

Tammy: I’m basically deciding between a counseling path and a nutrition path. Do you have any thoughts on that for someone who is in my position and at my age (27)?

Tara: With the therapist route, it’s probably similar to nutrition in that there are different areas you can work in, and it’s probably the same pathway if you ultimately wanted to have a private practice: making connections, getting referrals, etc. There are two things I would consider. One is the schooling and what kind of degree you’d have to get to do what you want to do in counseling. And the other thing is: I think you should try to decide if you’re interested in counseling or food. Try to separate out eating disorders. If you weren’t involved in eating disorders, do you picture yourself treating an obese client, or treating a client with diabetes, or designing meal plans? Does that interest you? Or is it more talking to people and counseling them? There is a big difference. With eating disorders, it gets intertwined, so that’s why you may be confused about how to make your decision. So, I think you should definitely sift that out. If you didn’t treat eating disorders and you had someone come in with celiac disease, would you be interested in doing the research and giving them recommendations for celiac disease?

Tammy: Do you think this is a stressful job and what would you say is the most stressful part of it?

Tara: I can’t say that I feel that I have a high-stress job here. There are challenges and difficulties, but I’ve learned how to set boundaries with my patients and how to not take things personally.

—– End of Interview —–

Thank you, Tara, for all of the great information!

Tara asked me some of the best questions I’ve ever been asked — questions that are really helping me to sort out what it truly is that I want to do. I hope that some of her kernels of wisdom are helpful to you in your own career explorations . . . or that you simply gained a better understanding about what it’s like to be an R.D.

 

More Modeling Adventures

Hi everyone! So you all think Zane is a pretty cute baby, huh? :) You should see him in person! He’s just so squeezable!

I had a great interview with my R.D. yesterday — I can’t wait to post it for you! It’ll be coming up in the next day or so, so keep your eyes peeled! If you’re interested in becoming a Registered Dietitian, you’ll find some helpful info in the interview. To my delight and surprise, there just might be a part-time position for me at my R.D.’s practice! We’re working out the details, and I’ll keep you posted! I’m very, VERY excited about the potential opportunity!

This past weekend, I had another modeling shoot . . . this shoot was different from most because . . . drum roll please . . . my husband modeled with me! He did SUCH an amazing job! Laura Keen, the incredible photographer, kept saying that he looked like he belonged in GQ magazine. Carter definitely has that smoldering male model look going on. I’m so proud of him — this was his first modeling shoot. We had a wonderful time “acting” in front of the camera. Modeling is one of my favorite hobbies and a great way to meet new and interesting professionals. Laura is really making a name for herself in the photography world: She was just hired as still photographer for a local Indie film. Pretty soon, Laura will be famous and I’ll be able to say I knew her when!

Here are some photos from our shoot.

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It was a beautiful day for a shoot!

Tomorrow, I’m continuing my career information gathering process by observing and interviewing a school counselor for several hours. I have so many burning questions. I’ll let you know how it goes!

Weekend’s almost here! Enjoy the rest of your week!

 

 

Sweet Things

I just can’t seem to start my blog posts these days without thanking all of my readers — but really, you make it impossible not to! :) Some mornings I wake up and feel very anxious knowing that I’m career-less for the time being, but I read your awesome comments which always put a smile on my face . . . and I keep plugging away at my job and undergrad/grad school research, and I know I’m doing all that I can.

A special thank you to Kathy for this detailed article about the R.D. profession and potential changes in the educational requirements needed for dietitians. This is a very helpful article to read before I go ahead and apply to an dietetics program! Tomorrow, I’m doing an interview with the R.D. who helped me recover, and I’ll be sure to ask her about her thoughts on an undergraduate versus a graduate program.

The most frustrating part about this process of gathering info about potential career paths is that sometimes I don’t love what I find out. Specifically, the educational path towards every career that I’m interested in seems to take SO LONG! I’m glad I’m doing this research now because I’d rather know what I’m getting myself into before I get myself into it! I don’t think education is ever a waste, and I do envision myself as having a “career,” not just a “job,” but I have other priorities that come first and that MUST factor into my decisions: my husband, our future family, and our work-life balance. If a career doesn’t fit our lifestyle, I’m certainly not going to change our values in order to make our lives fit around a career. That’s just not the way things work for me! Husband and family first!

I was feeling more sentimental than my usual sappy self this weekend . . . maybe it’s because October 24th was our 1 year and 5-month wedding anniversary. Every month on the 24th, I think about how another milestone has passed for us, even if it’s an “imaginary” one like 1 year and 5 months. Carter and I watched our wedding video this weekend, and I cried, like I always do when I watch our video. Then, we “practiced” our first-dance rumba in the kitchen because I never want to forget the steps or how it felt to dance in my husband’s arms for the first time. Here’s a video edit of our first dance. I love how we can’t wipe the grins off our faces!


more about “First Dance“, posted with vodpod

You know who else can’t keep a grin off his face? My adorable nephew-to-be, Mr. Zane! We spent some time with him at Linvilla Orchards this weekend. We’ve already been there several times this year, but we’ll go anywhere again if it means spending time with this precious little guy!

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He and Carter are so cute together that it makes my heart ache!

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Here are Zane’s mommy and my brother being silly.

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What a cute little piggy! Just one more reason why I’m a pesce-vegetarian. :)

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Zane almost gets as excited about his bottle as I do about eating dessert.

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This weekend, I tried TCBY’s seasonal pumpkin spice fat-free, no-sugar-added frozen yogurt.

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It was good, and I was impressed that it was free of both fat and sugar, but it wasn’t one of my favorite TCBY flavors. The flavor just wasn’t that pronounced. I much prefer the white chocolate macadamia nut, white chocolate mousse, cake batter, and peanut butter flavors. TCBY also had a cinnamon roll flavor that I’d love to get back and try this week. I bet it would be incredible with some heath bar pieces mixed in! If you haven’t figured it out yet, ice cream/frozen yogurt is my favorite food, and I enjoy some form of the treat several days each week. I say, if ice cream is your thing, eat ice cream. If cookies are your thing, eat cookies. If candy is your thing, eat candy. In moderation, you can eat what makes you happy and in my opinion, you should! Just look at that happy girl! Eating-disorder free for five plus months and going stronger than ever!

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As much as I love my ice cream, I also like to experiment with new treats and desserts. This weekend, I created a splendid mix of fat free ricotta (Calabro is definitely my favorite brand), chopped dried Calimyrna figs (I used a Nutra Fig crown — you can just pull off as much as you want and put the rest back in plastic wrap), unsalted peanuts and honey. It was a sophisticated, light and sweet dessert! It had a delightful contrast of flavors and textures. Definitely one to keep in the dessert/snack recipe file.

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And tonight’s dessert was a pumpkin pie parfait! I’ve created this pumpkin pudding before, but tonight, I changed it up a bit by adding a crushed graham cracker to the mix. This is very easy to create. Simply combine one 4-serving box of JELLO fat-free, sugar-free vanilla pudding mix with 1 cup of skim milk. Whisk together for 1 minute until the mixture starts to get thick. Then add 1/2 cup pure pumpkin and 1/2 tsp pumpkin pie spice to the mixture and stir it all together with a spoon. Cover and refrigerate until ready to eat. This tastes especially great chilled, so I make it in the afternoon when I know it want if for an after-dinner dessert.

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Spoon 1/4 of the chilled mixture into a parfait glass. Crush 1 graham cracker sheet in a plastic baggy, and pour the crumbs over the chilled pumpkin pudding. Then spoon another 1/4 of the pudding over the crumbs. Save the rest of the mixture for another day, or make another parfait for someone special who could use a pumpkin pick-me-up! Tastes like pumpkin pie in a parfait glass!

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Happy Halloween week! Is anyone else as excited as I am to watch “It’s The Great Pumpkin, Charlie Brown?”

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